I Still Love You

I’m sorry if I’ve seemed distracted lately. I know a healthy relationship involves equal contributions from both parties, and I know I haven’t been living up to my end of the deal. You know, the deal where I write, and you come and read. Although you could leave me comments more often, inflate my ego a bit. Because God knows, I slave away over a hot keyboard all day, trying to put together something you’ll like, and you barely nod your head in my direction. But I don’t want to seem like I’m trying to shift the blame. No, it’s not about you, it’s me.
You see, I only have so many hours in my day. When I’m overextended, you aren’t first on my list. I know, I know, you thought we were closer than that. I did too, in the beginning. But then the initial period of infatuation passed (you know, the period where I was writing, and I saw more and more of you reading daily in the stats), and I realized perhaps I wasn’t ready for such a commitment.
Like I said, I still love you. But the Baby, he’s coming between us. I feel like as he grows, the time crunch gets tighter and tighter. He’s crawling now, did I tell you (No, has it been that long, love?)? Well, yes he’s crawling and he’s become decidedly more demanding. I must follow him everywhere. He’s getting into everything; in particular, he enjoys electrical outlets and the hazardous chemicals stored under the sink. Do you see why it’s so hard for me to find time for you? The simplest tasks, like loading the dishwasher, have become a huge undertaking. I must stop every 10 seconds to make sure the boy is behaving. I swear, I turn my head for a minute, and he’s gulping down drain-o like a freshman at a keg party. Then poison control must be called, vomiting must be induced, and you know, the day really gets away from me like that…
I’m trying to get control of the situation, carve out a few hours for you and me, baby. And some time for some other things I’d like to accomplish too, like exercise, reading a book, and maybe shaving my armpits one day. In the meantime, I hope you’ll try to be patient, because I really think we’ve got something special between us.